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Session 04 - Meditation 01 - I exist

18/08/2014


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Well, I would suggest that you settle down comfortably and take some time to go inside and see what happens… and whatever one can see inside, we will stay quiet with that, just to observe, or even leave…

Thus, today we will really start the inquiry, and before starting this inquiry I would suggest that you reconnect with the power that you could have touched, felt, at the time when you set up your objective, your desire for this Meeting. And maybe, during the night, you were able to set up a much more radical objective and, as a result, with an existing energy much more powerful…

Therefore, if you have gotten this far, I invite you to well anchor within you the certainty that the universe has deployed all the necessary energy in your objective realization, that in fact this does not depend on you, but that the universe answers… and that in fact there can be no possible doubt, there is no possibility of not reaching this objective.

And now we are really going to enter into the inquiry.

Well, traditionally, the inquiries used to spend their time looking at what we were not and what we believe to be, to remove all this one by one. But today, I am going to propose something completely different because in the inquiry, or what has also been named the refutation, at a certain time there is this possibility of confusing the fact that there is nobody inside, confusing the fact that we are not a person with the fact that we don’t exist: as there is nobody, therefore you don’t exist. But in fact, if you are doing so, you are making this shortcut, you deny a huge evidence, that is that at any moment you are sure that you exist.

Thus I would like us to encounter this certainty « I exist », because what interests us is to find who we are. And this certainty « I exist », if we are able to get to the source of this certainty, maybe we could have a chance to find out who we are…

And here in fact, we can already try to see: is this certainty « I exist » present within the body?...

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And we realize that there is no notion of « I exist » within the body, there is no part of the body who comes and shouts « I exist ». Therefore this certainty of being does not emanate from the body…

At the thoughts level, we can observe… Actually yes, we can encounter a thought « I exist » there…

And if you precisely observe this thought « I exist », i.e. if you place the witness away from the thought « I exist » to see it, to define it, to see its consistency, so if the observer stands back from the thought « I exist », observes it, we will be able to observe different grades of this thought « I exist » maybe… different intensities. But if you observe this thought better « I exist », you will realize that the feeling « I exist », the certainty « I exist », the « I » (« I exist »), is not placed within the thought « I exist » but within the observer who observes the thought; i.e. there, if you have to put an « I », if you observe the thought, you will put it at the level of « I observe » and you will say: « I observe the thought ‘I exist ‘». In the same way as if you don’t have the opportunity to observe the thought « I exist », you can observe the body, you can observe whatever you want, you will see that the notion of the « I » (« I exist ») is located within the witness…

At a certain time you can see that if thoughts come to try to structure, to store what is observed, maybe you will move from « I observe » to « I think »; i.e. that the notion of the « I » (« I exist ») maybe will move from the observer to the one who thinks. But if this is the case, simply note that the observer at that point seems to have disappeared. If the observer is there, what is there is « I observe ». If « I think », if the « I » (« I exist ») is located at another place, the observer seems to have disappeared.

In fact, if you look carefully, he has not disappeared, he is simply glued to the object which has become « I » (« I exist »). You have pasted the observer within the thoughts and you have become the one who thinks. The witness has brought with him, within the thoughts, this notion of « I exist »…

This shows us, if we come back within the observation of the observer, to well define this observer, that highlights, I would say, three qualities of the observer: 1) he observes ; 2) he can project himself into what he observes, or he is capable of projecting himself into what he observes (he can either stay away or project himself within the thoughts); et 3) he brings with him the notion of « I » (« I exist »), that means that as soon the « I exist » comes within the notion « I am this body », « I am David », « I think », « I am hungry », the observer has come and placed himself, sticks to the corresponding aspect.

Thus this aspect is really, really fundamental. Don’t be satisfied with a little experience. This observation should really be, I would say, solid. So when the observer, the witness will reposition itself within the thoughts, or anywhere else, you will know that in truth, there are two things that have stuck together: the observer who has stuck to the thoughts.

If you are able to see that, if you live that, it could be said that all is accomplished. Everything else falls from that…

You can also observe that the mental will try to organize all that, all that has just been seen, to try to make rules, to try to say « ah yeah, I understand ». In reality, is there any single moment when the mental could have come within the observer? Is there any single moment when what has been lived has occurred within the thoughts? Thus, just recognize that all that is perceived from the observer, from the witness will not be understood, analysed with truth by the mental. Recognize that the mental will try to do so and let it do so while remaining placed within the observer, because it (the mental) is not involved in this, the « I » (« I exist »)…

And as the notion of « I » (« I exist ») is linked to the observer, we know that what is observed can’t be what I am. This is not knowledge, this is not something to know: it is obvious as soon as I am placed within the observer, and that, placed within the observer, I look to see where the « I » is (« I exist »). You have often been placed within the observer, but most of the time, you are placed within the observer to observe what happened, to observe the experience, without trying to know where the « I » was (« I exist ») in relation to the experience and the observer…

Compared to what you may have thought to be before this acknowledgement of the « I exist » placed within the observer, you thought to be a person, i.e. to be a body who thinks with emotions, who has a name, who was born at a certain date, who performs some actions… But all this, you can see that it can be observed, therefore in no way can it be the source of what you are, in no way can it be the source of the « I », of the « I exist ».

Then let’s stop there for today…

I invite you during the day as often as possible to place yourself within the observer. If at a certain time the observer has been caught up by the thoughts, if it has adhered within the experience and thus has brought with it the identification of the experience, just look : whatever you have to look at, whatever you have to note, this is perfect as in fact it will bring a growing understanding of the observer, or the feeling that the observer has disappeared.

And also observe that at certain times you may have the feeling « ah, I can no more find the observer », « ah, I am fully stuck to my thoughts, fully identified with my thoughts ». And there, remember that the very fact that you say « I am stuck to my thoughts » or the very fact that you can say « I can no more find the observer », the very fact of putting an « I » somewhere (« I am fed up, I don’t succeed »), means that you have found the observer…

Therefore there is no difficulty in knowing where the observer is. We don’t try to control the observer, just to recognize that it carries with it the « I » (« I exist ») and that it leads us to live the game of Illusion.

Right, let’s stop there for today.

 
 

 

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